Day 4 and nothing

Today has started off ok. I find myself having to take a nap after Josh goes to work. I don't know if that's because I am up so many times during the night or what. But after I layed down for a little bit I went for a walk and I made it 3 times around the track I thought that was pretty good seeing the past couple of times I could only do it once. I would have waited for Josh but this weather has been so crappy and you never know what it will be like when he gets out of work. We have been having so much rain but it seems like its really not cooling off that much.
So I have doctors tomorrow and I hope they tell me something besides "there has been no changes. SORRY!!!" I can't believe that I am due in 2 days and I have nothing going on. I have been having cramps for the past couple of days and I have had a stomach ache also. But besides that nothing really. But I guess we will see what they have to say and go from there.
I feel so bad that this weekend is the one weekend that Josh doesn't play softball and this will be the weekend that I will NOT go into labor. We both really don't want to have him on the 3rd or the 4th because that is taking away from him when it comes to his birthdays. Josh's friend Shawn has a party for the 4th at his house and everyone that I would have come to his birthday would be going to that. So...... But if it happens then it happens we will be just so happy that he is finally here.
But if there is nothing going on when I go to the doctors tomorrow then they are going to induce me Thurs or Friday of the following week. And that just happens to be the regionals for softball. He really needs to be there. I know it's not my fault I still wish that I could move nature along if you know what I mean. I feel that I really haven't done anything for him though this at least he could go and do the one thing that he likes to do. God I feel bad.
But he is so funny and cute. He is like a little kid just waiting for this special gift to get here. He is so sweet and he told me not to worry about anything and when it happens then it does.
Until tomorrow!!!!